Waiting for some Christmas magic
Hi lovelies,
I have been waiting for some Christmas magic to infuse my mind and inspire me to write something special to you all at the start of this holiday season but it hasn't really happened. Oh, I've had moments of smiling Christmas-y minds but just as many getting jobs done kind of minds as well.
So instead I came across a piece of writing that I did a few months ago about the changeability of feelings which seemed to fit with where I am right now and maybe you too so here it is......it's about when you have a beautiful moment of joy or one of anger/sadness and what to do with each.
A magic moment of happiness arises and I want to capture it, to bottle it and never let it go yet it ceases to exist so quickly and will I ever be lucky enough to experience it again or is it over? Trying to find that balance, holding something precious and delicate- like it is a bubble that can burst, as delicate as a bubble- see it drifting, floating. If you try to catch it, it will burst and be gone. So we try to lightly walk through - be in- these moments of wonderfulness and not cling to them too tightly. It is like with meditation objects, if you notice yourself in that moment, then the moment is lost. How to just be present lightly, not tightly.
Then there is the complete rejection of the dark, of anger, impatience, violence, savagery, mean-ness. In the rejection there is more anger. How to allow this ugliness that exists? Again, not to grasp it but be present to it -learn from it - what does the hatred have to show us/me? If we run too fast, reject too quickly, we lack courage and will never defeat it. We must be brave enough to look it in the eye.
The process is the same - be in it without grasping too tightly - let go of the sense that either is permanent. Let these feelings come and let them go. All the time being, doing, going on.
Go on. Go on. Go on.
Enjoy the Holidays. Merry Christmas.
Love, love, love, Kerry.xxxx
I have been waiting for some Christmas magic to infuse my mind and inspire me to write something special to you all at the start of this holiday season but it hasn't really happened. Oh, I've had moments of smiling Christmas-y minds but just as many getting jobs done kind of minds as well.
So instead I came across a piece of writing that I did a few months ago about the changeability of feelings which seemed to fit with where I am right now and maybe you too so here it is......it's about when you have a beautiful moment of joy or one of anger/sadness and what to do with each.
A magic moment of happiness arises and I want to capture it, to bottle it and never let it go yet it ceases to exist so quickly and will I ever be lucky enough to experience it again or is it over? Trying to find that balance, holding something precious and delicate- like it is a bubble that can burst, as delicate as a bubble- see it drifting, floating. If you try to catch it, it will burst and be gone. So we try to lightly walk through - be in- these moments of wonderfulness and not cling to them too tightly. It is like with meditation objects, if you notice yourself in that moment, then the moment is lost. How to just be present lightly, not tightly.
Then there is the complete rejection of the dark, of anger, impatience, violence, savagery, mean-ness. In the rejection there is more anger. How to allow this ugliness that exists? Again, not to grasp it but be present to it -learn from it - what does the hatred have to show us/me? If we run too fast, reject too quickly, we lack courage and will never defeat it. We must be brave enough to look it in the eye.
The process is the same - be in it without grasping too tightly - let go of the sense that either is permanent. Let these feelings come and let them go. All the time being, doing, going on.
Go on. Go on. Go on.
Enjoy the Holidays. Merry Christmas.
Love, love, love, Kerry.xxxx
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